I get in these moods where I start not caring about anything. Like just now, I was playing Xbox and I just turned it off without saying anything to the people I was talking to. I feel like my emotions have an off switch that I cannot control. I'll get to where sometimes I miss my ex ever so much, then later realize that I don't know why I was thinking that. I'll tell myself I want a girlfriend, and then the next day I'll think to myself that that's the most unappealing idea I've ever had.
I started to think I was bipolar because this has happened since I was a kid, but I've noticed that it only happens at night, or when I'm alone.
I'll hit a low, then go back to a high. I'll be ecstatic or I'll feel down, but not quite sad. I don't know how to explain it. Of course I'll just be content, but that's when this...thing doesn't hit me. I think it might have to do with the amount of in-depth thinking I do. I'm for sure an analytic thinker, and it's sometimes a burden. I'll think 1,000 different "what if.." scenarios about a given situation.
I'll start to organize my writing because it's bothering me that I already don't.
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